I’m a Christian who made the decision to follow Jesus when I was 29. My conversion was no great epiphany, just a gradual acceptance of who Jesus was (God) and that He wanted me. Although the journey was gradual, it wasn’t easy. I struggled with a large emotional obstacle that spurred me on in my quest to find peace—childhood abuse. I went through many years of counseling and my counselors all said the same thing. Forgive the person who hurt you. I found that I couldn’t do it. Even more than that, I didn’t want to. I wanted to hold on to the bitterness and hate, the frustration I felt over a life that should have been different.
The abuse came with side effects which lasted for years. Panic attacks, insecurity and fear, especially fear of trusting anyone. And though I wanted these things to go away, I never really thought they would. So I plodded along, in pain and confusion, until the blessed day I discovered I could let it all go. When I realized Jesus was the ultimate judge, I gave up my need to control everything, including the fate of my abuser. I let Jesus deal with the aftermath of the abuse and gave Him the responsibility for justice for my abuser.
At the time I accepted Jesus, I had a job as a Research Geologist at the Iowa Geological Survey. I believed in evolution and continued to do so for many years after I became a Christian. When I had my first child, I decided to leave the geological survey to stay at home with our growing family. Then, my husband and I attended a class at church which delved into the evidence for creation (the belief that God created the earth in six days, usually coupled with the belief the earth is quite a lot younger than 4 billion years). I was amazed at the lines of evidence that pointed to a special creation of the earth in the recent past. When I critically examined the evidence for both evolution and creation, I saw the evidence could point to either theory, depending on your starting point (the assumptions you make about the past). That left me with a choice. Would I believe a man-made theory or what God says in the Bible?
My answer was God.
For the record, I believe you can be a saved Christian and also believe in evolution. That was me for five years. My purpose in this blog is not to turn other people into creationists. My purpose is to consider science from a godly perspective. And to that end, I will hold the Bible as the highest authority on truth. Even if you don’t agree, I invite you to join me in my humble attempt to examine science the way I believe our creator intended.
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